Yawn 9.30.2011

I'm sitting here on my day off (only according to the schedule because I worked).  Tomorrow marks the beginning of my first official pay period with only 1 job.  I haven't had 1 job in almost 3 years.  I should be worried but I'm not.  I'm sure eventually I will get a full-time job outside of the home, or move on to something totally different but for now, this is what I have and I'm okay with that, for the moment anyway.

I seriously was going to attempt to work the other job but with the amount of hours I need to do in addition to my other job, it meant working something like 60+ hours a week, every week and not really having much to show for it because although I'd be working, the amount I would be earning would not reflect that, so I had to ask myself if it was financially as well as physically worth it.  The answer was no.  I did try it out for 1 week but I knew I was setting myself up for failure.  My day job has plenty of work so I'm just going to stick with them and continue to work on my business ventures.  Who knows, maybe I can squeeze in selling some photos (see insert LOL).  I have yet to get any deer photos but birds, bugs and frogs seem to be plentiful in my area, oh and cats too, not to mention my cute little dog.  I finally picked up a pink external hard-drive.  Yes pink, it's my favorite color.  You would think a woman in her 40s would not have this pink obsession but I do and I love it, love it, love it.  If it comes in pink, I want it.  When I become successful, I'm treating myself to a special order pink BMW or Mercedes.

Well, I suppose I should go to bed.  I have a busy day of cleaning, organizing and bill paying tomorrow.

Love ya,

~Pamela Denise~

Life and the things within 9.20.2011

So, I work 2 jobs currently, have an online business, take photos for fun and just try my best to lead a full life from my computer or the confines of my home's yard LOL, because I do all of these things from home.  Needless to say, I've been needing to make a decision about the 2nd job for a while now and instead of making that decision (to quit), I kept chipping away at my hours and taking more days off, even when I didn't need the entire shift off.  Hey a sista is tired. Not only do I have all of those things going on but I have a mate, 2 children and a very demanding dog, each with their own set of problems or needs, so yeah, it's a lot.

Regardless, sometimes life forces you to make decisions sooner rather than later.  Case in point:  I get an email last week stating that the company had been "acquired" by another company.  Now, that wouldn't be a big deal BUT, in my industry, that other company is known as the Squid, the Octopus and the Shark.  I felt sick to my stomach.  At first I thought to myself, "Snap out of it. It can't be as bad as every one says if they still have employees.  I'll be fine."  And I went with that, until the conference call later that afternoon and I heard person after person on the other end saying they left that company and came to the "now acquired" company because of their practices.  One lady asked point blank "Who do I give my resignation to?"  My stomach sank even further and I knew it was as bad as I had heard.  As the weekend progressed, I tried to calm my nerves and kept telling myself it can't be that bad.  Then the emails started coming in from the company.  Oh, it was as bad as I heard.  I told one friend, who also left that company and she said, "Ohhhh, I was going to re-apply just because I need more hours but no thanks."  Another friend's response was "I'm sorry."  The sorry was only from me telling her the company had been acquired and nothing else.   Not a good sign.

The good news is that was not my main source of income and although I will have to readjust and work more on the other job to make up for the loss of that income, I should be okay.

Speaking of work, I guess I need to do some.  Carry on folks!   Bigger and better things are sure to come my way.

Love ya,

~Pamela Denise~

Hamster

You know how hamsters get on that wheel in their cage and just run and run and run and really aren't going anywhere at all?  That's how I've been feeling lately.  I get up, work all day, take a shower and go to bed, only to get up and do the same thing all over again the next day.  It's getting old.  Somehow, I have to find a way to make some more time to do something different.  I'm trying to get this jewelry site   (Fabulousness? click here) out there and that's challenging to say the least, since I work from home all day, every day but I'm persistent.  There are a few other ventures I'd like to partake in as well as some that my partner and I are interested in pursuing but who has the time?   Making time is proving far more challenging than I thought...but again, I'm persistent.  Back to work I go...but hey, in the words of my 15-year-old, it will get better.  I'm glad she knows it.