No cake 3.6.15

So yesterday was my birthday and I decided against having cake. Why? Because since being out of work for almost 6 months, I have gained weight...and I'm a short chick, so it's not a good look, at all. I didn't even miss it, and I was able to have willpower even though my girlfriend came home with hot Krispy Kreme donuts the night before my birthday. She laughed when I said, "I will not succumb to the Krispy Kreme," but I was oh so serious. Days later, they are all gone and I didn't have one. Go me!

I didn't do anything special for my birthday because it was cold and rainy, and my girlfriend had to work. Our plan was to do something today but I woke up this morning and there were snow flurries so I figured that we wouldn't be able to do anything. It appears that they have stopped and the snow on the cars and rooftops has melted so all is well. I'm not sure what we will do today but I do hope to get to Kohl's and purchase a new coffee mug so that when my birthday Keurig arrives (my daughter ordered it late lol), I can have a new mug to go with my new machine.

Anyway, back to the snow....it was yet another reminder that I don't want to be out there working however, I don't have much choice these days. Hopefully something will come through soon because quite frankly, I am bored now.  Not working was cool in the beginning but I'm over it now. I'm ready to go back to work. This whole staying at home and being the happy homemaker is not for me. Don't get me wrong. I don't mind doing domestic things around the house and I will continue to do that. I'm just over that being the only thing I have going on aside from job hunting. I'm pretty sure I will be one of those people who works until I die.  The goal is to work for myself though so I can take off when I want.  I just think working will keep me sane. It makes sense now why most stay at home moms volunteer or do jobs or businesses from home.

Time to get a move on. It's after 9. I know that's early but I need to do some things so when my other half wakes up, I won't be scrambling trying to get ready.

Until next time,

~Pamela Denise~

Snow? 2.25.15

So yesterday the sky looked really strange most of the day and it was cold. I was so sure we would have snow by now but nope.  My girlfriend, who lived most of her life in an area where it snows every winter thought it would snow soon also so she sent me to the store to pick up a few staples. I tell ya, I have a love/hate relationship with Walmart. I love that I can find everything in one place but I hate that it can be a nightmare at certain times of the day.  My first mistake was going just before 5:00 when everybody was there after work. Tack on the people who were expecting snow also, not enough cashiers, and bam, not a fun shopping trip at all.  There were so many people in the store and they only had 3 registers open. Who does that? One of the managers got on the overhead and asked for all trained cashiers to come to the front lanes. After his second request, he got back on the overhead and started calling folks up front by name.  I thought that was hilarious because clearly he checked the schedule and knew who should have been up front by then.  Finally they opened 2 more registers but people were in such a hurry to get over to them that I decided to stay put.

Once I got back home, I was still waiting for the snow but still no snow. I mean, I'm not complaining because I can do without the snow but I guess I was just expecting it. Most of the schools have canceled classes for today and apparently snow is expected by 10, I think.  It's just after 8 and so far no snow.  Ideally, it would be nice if we don't get any snow, or dreaded black ice.

I'm typing this blog on my desktop, which has been giving me messages since yesterday that one of my hard drives is about to fail. That's just what I need while I'm in the process of looking for work and have started to apply for at home positions again. Just great. Ain't nobody got time for computer problems.  I have to look for my repair disks, which I hope are in the box next to my desk and not in the storage unit. If not, I will have to see what I can do about getting a new one. I have no desire to work on my laptop, even though it's newer than my desktop. Being that I made my living for years typing, I'm very particular about my keyboard and that laptop with it's flat keys, is not appealing to me at all.  Actually, this desktop came with a different keyboard but I didn't like it, so I'm using the old one with the rubbed off letters.  Hey, I know where the letters are.  I don't need to see them.  There are only about 7 keys that are really worn but I like this keyboard.

Anyway, I'm done rambling for now. Time to look for these disks and do a little job searching.

Until next time,

~Pamela Denise~

A new addition 2.24.15

First off, no, I'm not pregnant, and no, I'm not about to be a grandmother.  My sister is having a baby.  I've known for months but wanted to wait until she was at least 5 months before I posted anything.  I'm super excited.  I have a nephew from my other sister's marriage but it's not the same because she didn't carry him, though I love him just the same.

The sad part about this pregnancy is that we live in different states so I'm not there to see her progression...and, her hormones are out of whack right now and we've had a bit of a falling out. I do feel terrible but we both have our reasons for being angry.  This too shall pass.  I can't wait to hold this little baby.  It's been a long time since I've held a newborn baby.

Anyway, I'm just sitting at my desk about to make myself some breakfast and wait on this snow to arrive.  I'm ready to go back to work but I'm glad I don't have to be out there with the snow expected this week. My youngest daughter has school, and has to walk part of the way to her classes but I'm glad they have a sort of public transportation bus just for the college students so I'm sure she will catch that when she can. I'm glad I was down there this weekend to get her stocked with groceries again. My girlfriend has to work and that worries me because she works late at night. We need to move closer to her job and we need to do it soon so I can have a proper starting point so I don't apply for jobs that are too far away either because I hate driving. Hopefully we will look at some places this coming weekend. We want to buy another home but at this point, I think I would be okay with a short apartment lease just to get her closer to home.  Convincing her into another apartment will be a bit trying to say the least LOL. I mean, it would be a last resort anyway. We will see what happens.

My oldest daughter has been experiencing snow where she lives. I had to laugh when she said one of her puppies tried to run off in the snow the other day and she grabbed him by his tail because she was at the door with no shoes on.  That little one is always into something.

I hope all is well with everyone.  I think might do a little online window shopping today so I can check out some baby stuff.  It's funny how I can't even go into a store now without going to the baby section. I'm sure I will be worse when I know I'm having a grandbaby.

Until next time,

~Pamela Denise~

Do Not Pass Go 2.16.15

I think the odds are working against me.  Maybe I am supposed to just stay home.  For the past few weeks, every time I decide to go to a staffing agency, something happens.  I was going to go today but then with all of the talk about sleet today and snow tomorrow, I quickly changed my mind.  Hoping Wednesday will be better.

Until then, I will continue to stay inside and continue my job search. Seriously, with this weather, I could totally go for a nice nap.

~Pamela Denise~

I'm being tested, or it's a sign 2.9.15

Friday I had plans, which were snubbed out by sickness. Booooo.  I stayed in bed and rested all day Friday and Saturday.  By Sunday, I felt much better but I was still not feeling my best. I was able to get to Atlanta to see my daughter and take her grocery shopping, which was obviously a priority.

Of course, my goal for today was to get up and get out. I'm still not 100% but I feel well enough to be out however, it's raining and thundering. A person who is trying to get over being sick has no business out in that mess if they don't have to be, so at home I sit....again.  I'm quite disappointed but maybe it's a sign that I need to focus more heavily on at home positions again to see where that takes me.

There's always tomorrow.  I will find something to do inside today to keep myself busy.

Until next time,

~Pamela Denise~

Can it be done? 2.6.15

I'm on a roll this morning.  Blog number 2!  Pow LOL!

Anyway, I was about to get up from my computer and I started thinking about Craig's List and how many murders and robberies have occurred from interactions made through this site and it got me to thinking.  I wonder if the site can be shut down.  I mean, granted there are probably millions of people who have had successful and safe transactions from this site but no other site to my knowledge has been linked to so many murders and robberies.  Remember the Craig's List Killer? I'm cool on that site. I want no parts of it and I truly feel it's time for this site to go.

I'm seriously thinking about starting a petition on change.org.  If I do, I will come back and insert the link into this blog.  Like I said in my Twitter post a few days ago:  I'm sorry Craig but your list needs to go.

Okay, that's it. I'm done for now but I will be checking on that petition.  Have a lovely day.  Who knows, there may be one already, in which case, I will definitely sign that one and try to include that link instead.

Until next time,

~Pamela Denise~

Cruel joke 2.6.15

Most people who know me, know that I don't get sick.  Well, let me rephrase that.  I get a mild sore throat about once every couple of years.  I made my 2-year mark in December so I was sure I was in the clear for another year.  Wrong!  My throat started bothering me in the middle of the night.  Ugh.  I had so many things to do today, one of which included spending a few hours sorting through my storage unit but since it's only 27 degrees outside, that won't be happening today.

I don't know how to be sick and I feel bad for people who catch colds year after year.  The last time I was really sick with more than a sore throat was when I was 29.  I'm 45 now, so yeah, a long time.  I remember that sickness like it was yesterday.  Even though I worked from home, there was no way I could work and I took 2 days off and stayed in bed, only getting up to tend to my daughters' needs.  I hope it's just the sore throat and that I will be back to normal by morning.  Actually the throat pain is pretty much gone but now my head feels a little cloudy....not cool at all!

Looks like I will be spending the day in bed and taking some medicine tonight just for extra measure.  I need this gone before Sunday so I can go visit my college student and take her grocery shopping.  I don't want to get her sick and I don't want to be sick trying to drive to, and through Atlanta.  I need this mess gone!

At least I can sit in bed and watch Excel tutorials on my laptop but this marks the second day this week that I have spent my morning in bed.  Again, not like me at all. Sigh.

I suppose it could be worse.  I could be sick like my girlfriend with the cough, nose issues and everything else that goes along with being sick but I need to nip this in the bud today.  Like I said, I have things to do Sunday and I need to be out of the house doing something productive Monday morning whether it be hitting up staffing agencies or some sort of job fair, I need to be out of the house.  I already have a business casual outfit picked out:  Simple slacks, a nice cardigan and a simple blouse.

Ya girl is ready to go back to work.  I realize now that I could never be a homemaker for years but I also understand now why most homemakers volunteer or start nonprofit organizations, or even get into direct sales.  It gives them something to do without needing to be at work 8 hours a day.  It all makes sense now.

Well, time to get to relaxing, and a cup of tea.  This tea right here is the business!

Until next time,

~Pamela Denise~

I'm feeling normal today 2.5.15.

Today seems like a much more normal day for me.  It's 10:30 a.m. and I'm up, dressed and have been to my storage unit and to the post office. I needed to get something from storage to send to my daughter in Ohio. I was just being lazy about going but I'm glad that's over with.  Eventually I won't have that storage unit, or at least, I will have a smaller unit.  I don't even like to think about the amount of money I've spent keeping this unit for over a year but it was something that needed to be done at the time.

Anyway, yep, I'm feeling much better today though I was feeling a little down this morning when my girlfriend was getting ready for work.  I'm ready to go back to work and I realize that while I enjoy being home and even enjoy working from home, this whole not having a job thing has gotten old.  Seriously, I can only apply for so many jobs, watch so many videos and read so many articles before that gets old. There's not even enough cleaning to keep me busy daily since no one is here during the day with me to really mess things up.  I spend 90% of my time at my desk most days.  Sigh. I'm over it.

I did add some items to my online jewelry store Pretty Sparkles today but that literally took no time.  I even pinned some pieces to my Pinterest page but of course, that took no time as well.  I managed to tackle my closet this week and that was a big relief. We won't even mention the number of items that still had tags on them and good pieces that I've only worn once or twice, or only removed the tag but never wore...yeah, we won't talk about that.

Quite frankly, I'm bored. True, there are a ton of other things I could be doing but I don't have the motivation for that right now.

That's all I have to complain about today.  I really need to get a life. I don't like complainers so I'm not liking myself right about now.  I guess I will look at this Excel book again and attempt to make some sense of it.

Until next time,

~Pamela Denise~

Maybe I'm entitled to more than one. 2.4.15

Yesterday's blog was all about the weird day I was having.  I did manage to get dressed after all and today, I'm up and dressed like normal but, I still haven't made my way to my desktop computer and I'm on the bed with my laptop watching the season premiere of Being Mary Jane, for the second time and it's only 10:30 a.m.  Sigh. Something in my life is off balance and I need to get things back on track before I continue down this careless path. Of course, one fix will be going back to work and I do have an interview this afternoon but to be honest, I'm not holding my breath. I've been down this road before over the past few months.  I will give my all just like always. It just seems companies are weird these days about jobs or maybe it's just me. I don't know.  I've had some very strange interactions lately with companies.

Honestly, I'm ready to do my own thing, control my own destiny but the things I want to do take money that I have to plan for. I'm a planner and hate doing things on a whim or spur of the moment. That makes me crazy. I thrive on having a plan and this unemployment was not part of the plan but that's the chance you take when you rely on another person for your income....exactly my point and fuel for me to work for myself. Don't get me wrong. I don't have a problem with working for someone else but I don't want that to be my only source of income because things are so uncertain these days. I just want to be prepared in case the rug is snatched from underneath me again, ya know?  That's all, just want to be prepared.  No harm in that at all.

I suppose I will sit here a little while longer and maybe surf the Internet for a bit but I need to get up and move around. I have the whole day ahead of me before my interview and it's a phone interview so I don't have to worry about the stress of getting there on time so that's a relief. But first, a little more of Being Mary Jane.  I love me some Gabrielle Union.

Until next time,

~Pamela Denise~

It's that kind of day today 2.3.15

Anyone who knows me, knows that I do not stay in my pajamas...ever.  I get up, I get dressed.  Even when I worked from home.  It's just what I do.  I hate being in my pajamas all day BUT today, is a totally different beast. Not only did I not get dressed (it's currently 1:50 p.m.), I slept until 8:30 a.m.  I am an early riser and anything after 6:30 a.m. is much too late for me.  So yeah, I don't know what's going on today but I'm pretty sure I'm entitled to have one of these days every now and then and today is that day.

I won't even beat myself up about it.  My hair is even still in my bonnet.  I did wash my face and brush my teeth though. I'm not that bad.  I haven't had lunch yet, which is also out of the ordinary for me.  Not really sure what's going on with me today.

The funny thing is that I had plans to do so much today when I got up. Nothing major but plans nonetheless.  None of that has happened and none of it will happen...wait, I will finish sorting the clothes that I took out of the closet yesterday but that's probably it.  I don't even know what I'm making for dinner...again...not really concerned.

Have a lovely afternoon.  Gonna find some nourishment and more coffee.  Maybe I will at least change out of my pajama top into a sweatshirt....then again, maybe not LOL.

Until next time,

~Pamela Denise~

Speechless 1.21.15

I want to blog but I really have nothing to blog about....so I'll be back LOL.

~Pamela Denise~