Reminders 12.26.2012

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Yesterday and today were both reminders of why it's time to move on from the type of work I do.

First, yesterday was Christmas and I worked, instead of spending it with my family.  I asked my boss before the holiday what type of holiday schedule we would be following but got no response, so I worked my regular shift, and we were busy.  I suppose that's a good thing though.

Today, I'm supposed to work and there is no work....not a good thing.  Too much up and down.  There used to be a time when I would have plenty of work during my shift without the need to work later or on my day off but that was before I worked for a service.

I will do this job in 2013, only long enough to replace it.  As the saying goes:  "Stick a fork in me. I'm done."


~Pamela Denise~

Indifferent 12.12.12

So while my main focus has been on starting yet another home-based business, the reality is that I still need  a job.  We found out yesterday that with the merger that the company just went through, we would be taking a pay cut.  Sigh...who wants to lose money?  They have assured us that the incentive structures put into place  give us the opportunity to earn more.  Hmph.  I've heard that before.  That's the same thing they said about new program but  years later, I have yet to see a pay increase, only a major decrease in my earnings, and it's not just me.  Others in the profession have experienced the same result, many have left the profession altogether.  My goal was to stick around (because I do it from home) until my youngest graduates or at best is driving.  I estimated that I had about a year left, and I was okay with that, until yesterday.  It was like another slap in the face.  I don't even like to think about it.  I just keep plugging along, hoping and praying for some positive change but that has not come yet.  As soon as I get some sort of positive result, BAM something else changes and I'm right back to square one.  We have been told to be patient and I will be but the hunt is on, just in case.

Something has got to give before I lose my mind and everything else along with it.  I will miss being home with my family and my dog.  I will miss going outside in the cold air with my dog, being thankful that I don't have to be away to earn a living.  Again, sigh.

Unless some miracle happens, soon, my life as I know it, will change drastically, which means a change for everyone. The financial aspect will be an improvement but everything else will take some getting used to.  Try looking into your child's eyes, who you have been home with basically their entire life (16 years) and say you have to leave to go to work.  That's a hard pill to swallow.  Yes, I know 16 is a teenager but she's still my baby and I had hoped to be here until she was mobile or gone to college.

Okay, I'm going to be positive.  Maybe I can find something else to do from home to bring in more money by the end of this month so that I can stay.  Wish me luck folks!  And hey, if you have any real leads, send them my way.  I would appreciate it.

~Pamela Denise~

Like-minded 12.6.2012

I can't believe 2013 is right around the corner, literally.  Time to make some subtle changes that I hope will pay off in a big way.  One of those subtle changes will be to change the crowd of people I associate with.  Most of them are content where they are, and that's fine but for me, I want more. I want to have a successful business so my goal from this day forward will be to associate with and surround myself with like-minded people.  You know, the people who have done the work and have the successful businesses to show for it.  Those are the people I need in my life.

I also need positive people in my life.  The negativity can go.  I don't need it and will not feed into it.  No thanks.  I'm all about positive vibes and success.  All of that other mess, in the words of Sweet Brown, "Ain't nobody got time for that."

There are things to be accomplished on my to-do list.  I've wanted these things before but I truly believe I wasn't in the right mindset.  I'm ready now.  Let's go!

~Pamela Denise~