So while my main focus has been on starting yet another home-based business, the reality is that I still need a job. We found out yesterday that with the merger that the company just went through, we would be taking a pay cut. Sigh...who wants to lose money? They have assured us that the incentive structures put into place give us the opportunity to earn more. Hmph. I've heard that before. That's the same thing they said about new program but years later, I have yet to see a pay increase, only a major decrease in my earnings, and it's not just me. Others in the profession have experienced the same result, many have left the profession altogether. My goal was to stick around (because I do it from home) until my youngest graduates or at best is driving. I estimated that I had about a year left, and I was okay with that, until yesterday. It was like another slap in the face. I don't even like to think about it. I just keep plugging along, hoping and praying for some positive change but that has not come yet. As soon as I get some sort of positive result, BAM something else changes and I'm right back to square one. We have been told to be patient and I will be but the hunt is on, just in case.
Something has got to give before I lose my mind and everything else along with it. I will miss being home with my family and my dog. I will miss going outside in the cold air with my dog, being thankful that I don't have to be away to earn a living. Again, sigh.
Unless some miracle happens, soon, my life as I know it, will change drastically, which means a change for everyone. The financial aspect will be an improvement but everything else will take some getting used to. Try looking into your child's eyes, who you have been home with basically their entire life (16 years) and say you have to leave to go to work. That's a hard pill to swallow. Yes, I know 16 is a teenager but she's still my baby and I had hoped to be here until she was mobile or gone to college.
Okay, I'm going to be positive. Maybe I can find something else to do from home to bring in more money by the end of this month so that I can stay. Wish me luck folks! And hey, if you have any real leads, send them my way. I would appreciate it.
~Pamela Denise~
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