It's that time of year when my birthday is a few months away and I start to look at my life and think "What happened?" and "How do I fix it?" I know what happened. It actually happened 3 years ago when I lost my job. That's when my life changed and my finances really got away from me. The problem is, I haven't been able to fix it and my finances still have a mind of their own so it's time to really take stock and take a long hard look at my life and how I'm living. I know one thing for certain, a lot has to change. I'll be 43 in a few months and I do not like what I see. My goal of paying cash for a BMW for my 45th birthday is fast-approaching WITHOUT the funds to do so. That saddens me. I know it's just a car BUT it's a car that I've always wanted. I just never wanted to go into debt to get it. Looks like I'm going to need to push the date back or tuck that "want" into that box in my brain I've affectionately titled "Things that will never happen." I know, I know, never say never. Times are hard and I have a decent car that I hope will last for a very long time. Who knows, maybe I will be able to pry open that box just enough to snatch that BMW out....and maybe not.
Ironically, I read an article in Thursday's paper about the price of BMW's going up due to inflation. That only serves to push the BMW even further out of reach.
Maybe I will get lucky and win the lottery. A girl can wish, can't she? Sigh..... I'm tired of dreaming. I ready to have some of my dreams come true.
~Pamela Denise~
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