In a previous post, I mentioned that my mother had lost 2 sisters in less than a year. What I didn't think about until this morning was that the younger one left behind 3 sons, all of them grown but they are basically parentless now. Their father hasn't been a part of their lives since the youngest was a baby. He's 27 now. To my knowledge, he's still alive but they have no contact with him at all.
Then I got to thinking about my aunt who just passed this month and thinking about her youngest daughter who is only 2 years older than me. She too is now parentless, being that both of her parents have passed away.
I know that my parents will not live forever but I can't imagine my life without them. It would seem weird not to laugh on the phone with my mom, especially when she has something that she can't hold until I finish working. She says "I know you are working but I had to call and crack you up." Just hearing that makes me laugh. My father calls me on Mother's Day asking if I have any children, or calls me on my birthday saying he heard that I was 21 today. It's been more than 21 years since my 21st birthday but I still get a kick out of it. If he calls my cellphone and I don't answer, he always says "Pam, this is your daddy. Give me a call when you get a chance." Maybe he doesn't realize that I know his voice, or the simple fact that his cellphone number shows up when he calls me.
I understand that we are adults but we are still someone's children and that part of you never really grows up.
I don't want to think about life without them. I'm going back to work.
~Pamela Denise~
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