11.6.2012 Change is coming

Not sure why, but I feel change coming, and no, it has nothing to do with the election today.  It's more of a personal change that I feel is coming.  I'm hopeful that these changes, whatever they may be, will be good ones.

Walked outside the other day, looked up and saw this X in the sky over my house, so I guess X marks the spot.   I took that as a sign that this is where I need to be so I should stop living in limbo and plant my heels firmly where I am, not necessarily in this house or city but at least the state.  I've been in Georgia  for 6-1/2 years and for at least 4 of those years, I've wanted to move back home to California (which I actually did the first time I moved here in 2004, only to come back 18 months later) so that really makes no sense.  It's not even that I'm homesick but rather that my life has seemed to be in constant turmoil here.  I suppose that's just life and things can happen anywhere you live.

It feels kind of refreshing to say I'm going to stay for now and hey, if it doesn't work out, at least I know I tried.

Four years is a long time to be living in limbo.  I haven't wanted to do anything to my house because I'm always in the "I'm leaving" state of mind.  Crazy, I tell ya.  The madness has to stop and it will stop now.

~Pamela Denise~